A letter from Sep 07, 2024

Dear me, I’m like dying rn. I feel like such a lost cause. That's exactly how 8th grade me would describe me if she saw me right now. I think idk how to study anymore, like how on earth does one go from As and A*s to a fail. Econ is so hard. Accounting and both econ mcqs are so hard. I simply don't even need to start about maths. I don't know whats wrong with me but i just cant seem to do it anymore. Its so hard. Yeah its probably gonna be harder i know okay but god i wish i knew how to fix this. I'm terrified for olevels and i really don't wanna dissapoint my parents, my teachers and most importantly myself. It's gonna be so embarassing if i do as bad as i'm doing right now when it comes to olevels. By the time you get this letter, you would've gotten your olevels results. Please please please tell me its good. Tell me i didnt fail anything and tell me i didnt get below a B in anything. Tell me i made it to the top 10 the least. Top 5 is preferable, its lowkey impossible though. And i have so many questions and i dont even know what i dont know. I miss tuition with him, it was actually so helpful. He'e leaving for uni in a few days to UK. See how he's doing. Tell me you'll make it to that level too. You know you want to. I need a tuition teacher so **** bad. I don't know to fix this. Someone please tell me how to fix this. What happened to me? I used to a star student. Always good at everything. I've been nothing but nice to everyone. Even the ones i don't need to be nice to. I hope you're doing better than i am right now. Please try really hard for Alevels i'm begging you, fix yourself. Change yourself. If you didn't do well in olevels you need to change youself, shape yourself and mold yourself into the person you wanna be. You know the lifestyle you deserve and the lifestyle mom deserves. Don't do that to her. Change your ways right now, i don't care how you do it. Just do it bro. You dont want your kids to have a bad lifestyle. You want to provide well for your kids the way mom provides for you don't you? If your answer is yes. Change your ways. Good luck. Again, i hope you're doing better than i am.